don't know what i should do?

It's been a long time we have been couples.I mean, we r the husband and wife.I felt as if there was no space between us
But today we have faced a lot of problems.I didn't mean doing all things to challenge u.because I did it for what?for u have the reason to leave me ?I have ,means, do all things the wife can do with the husband,but did u have the respect for that?
this only 1 day I cannot send u the mess, and u blame me for ignoring u,having no respect for u,and after that u said u cannot control yourself, being very tired,very fed up with me and want to leave.yes,you want to have the exit door, for u.only u.not for both of us.and I felt that,this means.really really hurt me.
any promises u gave me,forget it?and u have no responsibility for me.u said don't annoy u any more.that';s what u want to emphasize and said leave u alone,don't talk to you.its that what u mean?
sometimes, yes,again,i felt as I am like the old doll.the 1st time when My mother has the baby.the second is y,yes,u leave me like we have no memories,and leave me alone with all the hurt u brought to me
this is like what?
tell me?
is that what u want to do with me?bring me the happiness and after convey me,then leave me or push me out of your life?
why don't u kill me?